No one knows the battle you’re raging inside your head.
the reflection i see
I gaze upon my face
But I see all that lies beneath
I search for greatness
I yearn to find the person some claim they see
So I dive
Desperately into my soul
Searching endlessly
Swimming through the sea
Of thoughts and actions
The words I have whispered quietly
Screamed relentlessly
And buried painfully
As I search in a panicked stupor
For the good they claim to see
All I find is pain
That was dealt to those I love
By me
I continue to search
And with every glance
Into the person who I really am
I hate myself more
I am pathetic
An unending failure
I am not enough
Though I strive to be something
I know I am nothing
I harder I try
The more I fall
I am not the man
You people imagine me to be
I am a boy
There is no good in me
its just one cut
the cold steel calls to me
it begs me to return to my past
it longs to feel my warm flesh
and to taste my salty blood
it tells me to let it be a part of me once again
it longs to take away the pain
and replace it with a pain of its own.
i contemplate answering its call
i long to take it in my shaking hand
and press it to my pale, bare leg.
i long for the relief it offers
i yearn to replace the pain in my heart
with one that is easier to handle
and simpler.
it wont be long
im near to returning
to the love we once shared
but not fully of my own will.
but what choice have i?
the pain is to much.
its just one cut…
i hate people. people who say they are like family and then treat you like crap. i swear, i was ready to murder tonight….sooooo hardcore
senior year…after 18 years, this is who I’ve become and all i can do is wonder if thats a good thing
hey, theron
YOU are the fucking loser. One year later. Shits gonna be different this time you sorry excuse of a man, father, husband, christian, ect..Theres only one thing you need to know and thats this “I dont need you. you might be my father, but you will never be my dad. So go fuck yourself and find someone elses life to ruin, cause you are never going to touch me again”
this is the story of my night
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oh how i love you luke
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